..Christmas Is Coming..

.. 2 more days and CHRISTMAS is coming..i was so excited!!! will taking leave from 24th to 31hb..hee... a long Holidays!! i dont care as long as i have a time for my family and myself too..

So sad coz i cant celebrate it with my Hubby... But, Its ok.. Next year still have for us..hee.. cant wait..

.. Tahun ini bagi peluang diri masing2 celebrate sendirian.. Freedom for doing anything as long as we know the limit.. Dalam masa 2 hari ni i hope that i can make myself calm... dunno what is that..but something keep bothering me..hati ndak senang... Huh..! Relax Rain...!! dont make its become your bigger worries that disturbing your Christmas Mood.. i let myself become the old one just for this time... Hopefully everything in control.. i just need to refresh back the smell of CHRISTMAS that i used to feel before...i miss it so much..!! and i dont want anything disturbing me eventhough it is about someone i love... kalau boleh i dont want to think about it for that day..its time for us to celebrate the day with our own way.. He is with his Way and im with mine.. its didnt mean anything actually its just becoz i already promise to myself that i wont disturbing Him that day.. coz i know when i think about it too much it will ruined my days.. Sorry to says that..!

.. i wanna let this anger go from myself..its hurt to keep it...i wanna says it but i know nothing gonna change it too.. i know He will do that too even i says i dont like.. so the good conclusion is just stay that way and change one by one... and as for me of course i get mad but i keep telling myself that nobody is perfect and i have to accept it.. coz i know next time everything gonna be as what i wish...as i says before..i wont forcing Him.. as long as He know that i dont like thats was enough for me...i wont change people... let He changed by himself.. itu lagi POWER..!

.. Huh..! Enough about him..! hee.. 25hb we'll celebrate the Family Days VS Christmas Days.. im so exicted..! i miss family gathering..eating too much..singing..laughing..playing a games and of course its time to Chit Chat with thems... WhoooOOoo!! im on a good moods now..hee.. Cant waitttt!!!...

.. Will not update for a fews days..hee.. will come back at the end of the year..posting my last post on 2010.. Summary for the whole year.. so wait for me ya..

So i wish you all :-

** MERRY CHRISTMAS 2010 & HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011**

- S!O!R!R!Y -

it's 1.o9am in the morning and its mean we've been together for 3 months 1 days..:)

Huh..! time flies so fast oo..i also never expected it..

now im listening Christian Bautista's Songs again.. and he is the one on my mind now..

Sometimes i've thingking.. Bagaimana Dia bisa bertahan melayan perangai sa selama ini??.. hee..

i think that sometimes im too much..! but still he stay with me..

i admit that im demanding..!

i am bad..i know it..i dunno how to treat him...i dunno how to show him that i cared...

but to tell you Hubby..

"..no matter what i say or do its all becoz i cared too much on you..

sometimes i feel angry whenever you say ' Saya meginum' .. honestly, im not stoping you from that but i just cant stop my feelings.. i dunno how to act cool for something i dont like.. So sorry for that... i know i makes you feel down whenever we talked about this.. and im really sorry...its my fault..! i still remember our last conversation about this.. i know i make u sad..

Thats why i told my self not to force you again.. i want you to change becoz of yourself not becoz i want it..

i keep telling myself.. ' Rain, please back to the basic..' bukan kerana merajuk..but its becoz i dont want it burdening you, Hubby.. I love You and i want you to feel comfortable with me.. i'll let all this behind me as long as you're happy with me.. I only need it...nothing else..

"..we've been connected all this time by an invisible string attached, From your heart to mine we circled the obvious like satelites that roam around the earth.. No, im never gonna let you go.."

i dont care how is you..your behaviour.. you smoke or you get drunk.. i accept it..! i just have to be patient..coz i know someday you'll change..by yourself.. thats what i want.. i luv u damn much and i dont want this two things disturbing our day everyday.. i know you need your freedom too..thats why i've thingking this for quite long time... i just hope you know your limit and keeps my words.. ' jan asarok'.. i just need it..\(".")/

Sorry..! really sorry if i've hurt your feels through my action or words.. ! - I Love You and i Hope you to be the last one for me.."

Huh..! i just hope next year will bring more love, happiness and happy moment to us..thats why i cant wait for New Year...cant wait to see what God has ready for me..Cant wait to know what gift i'll received.. cant wait to face new challenge..cant wait to meet new people.. but i hope nothing can make my tears to come..even i know that no one know what would happen but i think im not ready for PAIN & TEARS in 2011.. I hope so...

Pa2 pun.. its time to take a nap..its been to late already...nanti lambat bangun lagi besok.. huh! mata pun mula meragam..! See you next Post! - LUV YA -

..Its YOU..

ermm...just come back from Tuaran..celebrating the birthday party..! its was fun..really fun..! i laugh all the time even sometimes the red eyes spoiling my mood..hee..but still i can says that this is one of my favourite year end's party for 2010...enjoying it with my beloved family...

Suddenly missing him much!!..cam ndak puas jak ceta ma dia tadi..hee...tapi pa ble buat dia pening...Miss hearing his snoring...dunno why..but i feel more closer to him whenever i hear it eventhough just hear it through phone..

im listening Christian Bautista's songs now...honestly its remind me to him...whenever i miss him i'll hear all the songs..

OMG..!! this feeling can't stop my tears..wish him to wake up and call me again..i miss his voice..! damn!!..padahal baru jak off phone tadi..haizzz!! this is crazy..!

"...It’s your smile,Your face, your lips that I miss,Those sweet little eyes that stare at meAnd make me say,I’m with you through all the way..Cause it’s you Who fills the emptiness in me..It changes ev’rything, you see, When I know I’ve got you with me.."

One of my favourite songs by Christian Bautista.." YOU" Just for Him!!..

"..You give me hope,The strength, the will to keep on;No one else can make me feel this way, And only you Can bring out all the best I can do; I believe you turn the tide And make me feel real good inside.."

Hubby...i'll be by your side as long as you want me...i'll try to be your favourite 'BLOG'..Following every

' POST' you says...i love it!!..

...Early Morning Toughts...

Gud Morning..!!! it's 4.30am in the morning...OMG!! cannot sleep...!

duduk depan PC dengan secawan cofee mix..hee..

try mo tutup mata tapi tidak berjaya..kenapaka??

Tgk picture balik2 tanpa rasa bosan..Oh, saya rindu Si Hubby..!

Kenangan muncul kembali..hee..semuanya dari A to Z..

haisshhh!! tetiba pula hati bergetar..RINDU !!

mau jumpa ooo..huhuhu..! Bilakah???

tia sabar..!!

i miss my FRIEND aka BOYFRIEND = Si Hubby !!

i remember everything he do that day..FUNNY!! i smile a lot !! ngeeee!

i know i never being like this before..But when im with him i change..

HAPPY..

SMILE..

LAUGH..

JOKING..

JEALOUS..

ANGRY..

TALKACTIVE..

he change me to be someone else..and i love it..

Wish to Dating with him again like that day..hee..

filrting...hahhaha..!

staring at his face...

laughing with him..

kiss him...

Hug him...

sitting beside him..eating together..

most of all is i miss the time he sings a song..my favourite things about him..

the way he teasing me..

OMG!! i miss everything about him.

p/s : saya rindu kamu Encik Ronald!!

-- Kalau Ada yg belanja kan bagus..! -

* SODAPPPPPP!!! im craving for this...yummyyy!! sepakah yang sudi mau belanja?? *
si Hubby???? hee.. lama rasanya tidak merasa kek coklat..air liur meleleh2 nampak ni picture..
harap2 lah sabtu ni they choose coklat cake for the birthday party.. Hopefully..!

My Favourite Ice creammm..!! Si Hubby help me..hahhaha..!!
Gumuk pun gumuk lar..i tak kesah dah..! ( padahal dalam hati ' saya mau kurus' )
tapi ni ice cream memang tak kan d lepaskan...Si hubby????

This One tooo...Cadburyyyyy!! Won't stop choosing you..! si Hubby??? hee...
jan c lama...hahahha! i know he like it too...nanti mo pujuk dia lai ni.."(<_>)"
( Si Hubby..if u tebaca this post jan pula pura2 tak tau yee...)

..HUH..

..hUh..!!! No Mood since yesterday...this eyes is killing me...tensennnnn!

..kan bagus jadi butA ( iskk..pa yg d repekkan nie )

..penat melayan..huh!

..since dari budak2 till now..masih juga..pigi klinik ubat yg sama juga d bagi

..klinik swasta pun ble jadi untung gara2 mata ini..last2 aku pla yang bankrup..!

..Pakai cermin mata?? camna la wajah tu aahh? ermmm...x ble imagined!

..misti buruk..dah la wajah tak secantik mana..huhuhu..

..bertekad mau ke pakar mata lah ni...paksa diri..jangan takut ( membagi semangat diri sendiri)

..Apa2 pun besok mungkin saya cuti akan MC sendiri dengan mengunakan alasan ' MATA MERAH'

..Huh..whatever..! ( dalam masa yg sama berdoa agar mata sembuh sebelum sabtu)

..Sabtu ni ada family gathering temau mata menspoilkan every pose pada ari tu...
( HOPEFULLY)


p/s : Saya Rindu Kamu Encik Ronald.. '(>_<)'.. bilakah lagi akan ketemu??.. Huh! kamu buat hati ini tidak keruan...
- L.O.V.E -