...it's still here...

....its 1.13am in the morning and all i think is him...silly me...dunno how to stop...all i know is i'm missing everything abt Him!!!!!....what happen RAIN!!!....i wanna stop this things early bt still my heart say NO!!!...mati la ni kali....haizzz!!!!

...its kiling me....

This is kiling me...haizzzz...dunno what to do to let it go...its happen again after i pull it out last time...something keep bothered my mind and heart...am i???...the smile and the jokes makes me wanna lie down and dreams...hahhahah...WTH!!!!...crazy!!..

Its a weired feeling!!!

its weired..hehehhe..my mind keep thinking about him...arrrghhh...i cant explain why but its something sweet!!!...:)

am i admiring him..oh no..takkan la....gilaaa...i cant be...but i feel happy when chatting with him..i laugh and smile for no reason....arrrrghhh....i dont want to be like this....but knowing more abt him make me happy....gila ehhhh....doiiii...what happen to you Rain!!...becareful with that...

i dunno what is that.. or i just pretend that i dont know..???? budu ehhh...dont say im in love with that guy...NO!!..

...it's LIFE maybe...

For sure im happy for what i have now...a freedom , a friends and of coz a lovely family!!..they making my life perfect..until i forgot what loneliness is..i cherished everything come to my life...i accept every feels that distrub myself...
sometimes i wonder why some people really obssed with something that they know they would'nt...why dont they just stop and looking for the best!..waiting and hoping for something that they know they cant get...
i was that person last time...forcing my ownself just to make the other one happy...taking the big risk that might make me regret the whole life...last time i dunno what REGRET means..but now when i reflect evrything happen to my life before i began to feel it...theres so many things happen until i dunno wether i can stand up or not..is that's LIFE maybe kan?
The simple LIFE become the complicated one...and im the only one who started it...Owh, how i wished i could back to my PAST!..enjoying everything without thinking about what happen next...without getting involved in this words ' LOVE '...the MOST things that changing me now..i hate it but at the same time i need it...insane!!!....i sacred to fall in love but i miss to have the feeling....God, help me...how im going to get through...i'm BLANK!!..