Yeah, I found my Missing Piece.

The Missing Pieces sat alone...

Waiting for someone to come along and take it somewhere..

Some Fit..

But could not roll..

Other Could Roll but could not Fit..

One didnt know a thing of fitting..

and another didnt know a thing about anything..

One was delicate..

One put its on pedestal..

and left it there..

Some hand too many pieces missing..

Some had too many pieces, period.

It learn to hide From the hungry one..

More come..

Some looked too closely..

Others Rolled right by without noticing..

It tried to make itself more attractive but it didn't helped..

It tried being Flashy..

But that just frightened away the shy One..

At last One Come along that just fit right..

But all of sudden The missing piece began to grow! and grow!..

" I didn't know you're going to grow"

" I didn't know either", Said The missing pieces..

" Im looking for my missing pieces, One that won't increase"

And One day, One come along who looked different..

"What do you want from me", asked The Missing pieces..

"Nothing."

"What do you need from me."

"Nothing."

"Who are you?" asked the missing pieces..

"Im the big O," said the Big O

"I think you're the one that im waiting for,"said the missing piece

"Maybe im your missing pieces"

"But im not missing a pieces," Said the Big O

"there's no place you would fit,"

"That is too bad," Said The missing Pieces

"I was hoping that perhaps i could roll with you..."

"You cannot roll with me," Said The Big O

"But perhaps you can roll by yourself,"

"By myself?? but missing piece cannot roll by itself.."

"Have you tried?" asked the Big O

"But i have sharped corners. Im not sharped for rolling," said the missing Pieces.

"Corners wear off and shapes changed.. Anyhow, i must says gud bye.. perhaps we will meet again," Said The Big O and away it rolled.

The missing piece was alone again..

For a long time it just sat there..

Then.. slowly it lifted itself up on one end..

Then lift..pull..flop..and flooped away..

it began to move foward..

and soon its edge began to wear off..

Lift.. pull.. flop.. lift.. pull.. flop..

and its shape began to change..

and then its was bumping instead of flopping..

and then its was bouncing instead of bumping..

and then its was rolling instead of bouncing..

and it didn't know where..

and it didn't care...

It's was Rolling!

[Source]

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Have you Found your missing Piece??..

Some of Us maybe YES, some maybe OTW, some maybe HAVENT met..

Me??

Now i can says that i Met my missing piece.. i have been through with so many sadness before..

im hurt a lot.. My life is really gloomy.. im feeling wanna sleep forever.. Forgeting all the pain, Loneliness and sadness..

But i never know that all that what happen in my life is just a small matter..

Its all change when theres a day That i dont feel anything.. And i know thats was the day that i realize that im moving On.. I started enjoying my day.. thinking foward.. Leaving all my Old memories & Sadness..

Life always try to give us lesson to be learn.. its only up to us wether we dare to challenge it or not.. So, you guys out there.. keep looking your missing pieces its always there somewhere around the world.. Keep strong while facing our own Lesson. Patient and Struggle is the key for the seeking..

P/s: Im happy Finding my missing Piece.. sometimes we cant fit each other but most of the time we struggle very hard to make us Fit and strong together.. And for all that i only can says That He is my missing pieces.. mybe someday He is leaving but as for now he is that ONE piece and im going to glue it so that He won't grow.. Muaxxx!!

..uLanG taYanG kEhidUpaN..

ari ni nak ceta pasal CINTA lagi.. Bole??..

i dalam mood nak balik rumah..tetau apa nak buat..hehehe..

( Padahal dah sehari suntuk i 'bercucuk- tanam' kat FACEBOOK)

'Tanaman' i kat sana memang cun2..tak penah ada kat alam realiti..

Ermm...sedar tak sedar i dah ada kat dunia blog hampir 4 tahun..

wow! lama kan... Dulu time baru sign in i tak tahu pun apa itu blog..

yang i tahu i nak cari satu 'tempat' untuk cerita semua yang ganggu hati i..

so ter'wujud la ' DIARY ALAM MAYA' i ni..hee..

and i love it so much!

Dulu..i create blog after break dengan 1st BF..

hahahhah! rasa lucu bila ingat balik..

Alasan nya sebab tak de duit nak beli buku diary yang kiut2..

lagi pun tangan penat tekan pen..hee

nak kongsi dengan kawan pun tak tahu macam mana nak mula..

Coz i bukan nya jenis orang yang talkactive...

i pendiam yang suam2 kuku je..

kalau bab2 nak luah kan frust memang i tak bole..

tapi awal tahun ni i dah delete semua post i tahun 2008 & 2009 punya..

tinggal beberapa saja lagi post i tahun 2009 punya itu i pilih yang terbaik sahaja...

saja je nak something yang fresh..

i tak mau bila tiap kali Log-in Blog kisah2 lama akan terimbas balik..

pertengahan tahun 2009 i couple balik.. dengan bestfriend i sendiri..

tp nak dekat ujung2 taun dia kata nak break.. jodoh tak de.. sedih..

that why i frust again.. lebih2 lagi i admire kat budak ni dah lama..

huh! biarlah... kitaorang cuma sesuai jadi kawan kot..

so taun 2010 memang post semua berkisar tentang dia..

hampir setiap hari i post sesuatu yang emo... dekat FB.. dalam BLOG..dalam SMS..:)

sampaikan dalam dalam beberapa bulan jak post i da mencecah 100 keatas..

hahahhaha! CRAZY !!

Time break dengan guy ni yang rasa sangat FRUST!!..sakit hati yang tak terbendung...

kalau i dok layan hati time tu memang kompom i dah ada kat hospital sakit jiwa..

hahahhaha! nasib baik juga la i masih sayang diri sendiri..

dah tak da jodoh nak buat camna kan...

huhuhu! setiap yang Hilang pasti ada gantinya.... Senyum lebar!!..

pertengahan 2010 AKU JATUH CINTA lagi..

hahahhaha! Dasar!

ala..tak kisah la kan...CINTA ITU BUTA!

bila2 masa pun dia akan datang..

CINTA kali ini memang berbeza.. kalau dulu lelaki yang cakap kat i dorang ADMIRE i..

tapi kali ini i yang dulu cakap..

tak tahu malu betul i kan..hahahha!

tak kisah la..janji bahagia.. erm, i bahagia ke??

i jenis yang susah nak jatuh cinta...sekali ia terjadi i tetap nak kan orang tu..

malu pun malu lah..hee..

and maybe i was lucky! He got the same feel like me..wakakakka!

Lucu juga la..but He is such a nice guy!! and im really thankful tu God..

tak sia2 i tebalkan muka cakap dengan dia time tu... Fuhh! Lega...

Now, ari ni genap 7 bulan 3 minggu kita orang bersama..

pertama kali hubungan cinta i melebihi 5 bulan..hahahha!

and pertama kali juga i rasa sedikit lega dan yakin dengan perasaan i..

saya belajar marah , Cemburu , ambil berat , dan berkongsi hidup dan cerita dengan orang selain BLOG & DIARY...

CINTA buat kita berubah kan??...hee..

ajar kita banyak benda... i sangat2 bersyukur dengan kenangan masa silam i...

kalau i tak rasa sakitnya CINTA masa itu mungkin sampai sekarang i tak tahu macam mana rasa seronoknya bercinta..

Wah!! im dreaming again!! ~ suddenly, i want time flies fast!!..

cant wait for The Plan..

one of the reward for our relationship...

God Bless Us!!..

Hari ini..apa yang pasti i nak sangat Dia yang pegang tangan i sampai tua..

Boleh kan i berharap... :)

Doa kan kami agar sentiasa bersama...Amen!

P/S : Mungkin Cinta itu sakit dan membunuh hati kita.. Tapi hak kita untuk mengubatinya.. Jangan simpan lama2 karang kita ' MATI ' dalam kesedihan..

..JEALOUS itu penting ka?..

orang kata ' kita perlu buang rasa cemburu itu..'..

tapi macam mana kita tahu dia sayang kita kalau dia tak tunjuk yang dia tu cemburu??

As for me..i get jealous with him almost everyday...im a bad GF..haa..what to do..huh!

i try to act as usuall..but still i cant...so scared!..

i do believe him but i just cant believe myself..

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i always wanna be someone who can say ' I DONT WANT TO CARE'..

but the problem is i care everything..

susahnya nak hilang kan rasa geram dan marah dalam masa yang singkat..

mesti feeling ni berlarutan sampai esok dan lusa..

kadang rasa bersalah juga bila dia layan i dengan baik tapi i buat deh jak..

ni semua gara2 geram kat dia lar..

kalau lar dia pujuk and ajak i tengok wayang kan bagus..hee..

terubat juga lar rasa marah tu..:)

huh! Rain2...asyik2 layan masalah ni..

cam mana ek nak ilang kan suma tu...

rasa jealous , marah , geram...suma lar..

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i just dunno what to do..

i always blaming myself for acting like this..

JEALOUS! please get out!..

I love him so much! thats why i get jealouse..

even i know he is only joking still the feels attack me..:(

i wanna be the SLUMBER gf..

the BFF aka GF..an acting like it is something precious moment that we shared together..

accepting everything happen around us..

But , So sorry Dear..i just cant be 100% like that..

sorry coz you have to face my mysterious mood sometimes..

i will try to slow down but dont ask me not to get JEALOUS or ANGRY for everything you do..

i just want you to know that not all things i can accept..

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

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I hope you're the last person i get jealous..

p/s: i just cant wait WEEKEND to come..coz that is the only day i can hang out with you..teasing you..dating with you and of coz its time to ' MANJA - MANJA' with you..(^-^)

-Thought for the EARLY MORNING that i tought still NIGHT-

[Princess Rain : Wahai Hujan, tak sakit ke badan kalau asyik turun tak henti - henti??]

it's 1.30am in the morning...i cant sleep!! uarrgghhh! what happen this..

im not sleepy..im not yawning..my eyes open wide!!!

ni mesti gara2 penangan IPOH KOPI PUTIH...

ari ni dah masuk ari ke 2 ai minum minuman ni..

and guess what??yesterday i sleep at 3am...

i should stop drinking that..i guess..

tak ble tahan..akibatnya pegi keja dengan wajah ngantuk..

dah lah bangun lambat tiap hari..

kalau ari2 minum gerenti jadi MRS. PANDA la ai..:))

Si Hubby dah tido sejam yang lepas..sempat lagi ai dengar dia berdengkur kat telefon..

Owh! so Cute!!...suddenly missing Him..:((

tak sabar nak dating nanti malam..nak pegang2 boroi dia..(^_^) Boleh??

~.. Senyum nakal..~

alah tak yah nak fikir len2 lar...hee'

hak masing2 nak buat apa pun kan..:))

Weekend is our time...iwill go and stay at his house..with his family..

maybe some of you think that its not good..

but im an open minded person.. hak masing2..keputusan di tangan sendiri right?

but i wont say you wrong...:))

your right to says what on ur mind..upsss! cam slogan FACEBOOK la pula kan..hee

ermm..akhirnya A PIECE HEART OF ME ada page !! Sila singgah sekejap ya..jangan lupa tekan BUTANG SUKA..(^-^)..

da lama da try nak buat tapi ai masih tak pandai2..Tapi berkat usaha gigih akhirnya pada 7hb April 2011 termetrai la sudah KEKASIH GELAP ku...ai sangat2 berterima kasih pada suma kengkawan yang telah menSUDIkan jari mereka mengklik BUTANG SUKA dengan tikus masing2...hee..HAPPY!

Ermm..tepat jm 2am..! Nak tido lar..paksa mata ai yang kiut ni tuk tutup..uargghhh!! ( menguap cara taip) hee..

I tido dulu k...

Tunggu kedatangan post ai ya.. MUNGKIN NANTI besok ai rajin nak menaip..apa2 pun selamat tidur !!ZZZZzzzzZZZzz..

p/s : Si hubby...sori tadi ai tak sempat nak KISS, says I LOVE YOU & NITE...sebab ai tak sampai ati nak setopkan bunyi 'CUTE' itu walaupun pada realitynya telinga sakit..:)) But, the sound make me miss you damn much!!! tadi ai sempat lagi dengar SUARA MACHO kegemaran Hubby...I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! believe me...

.. DILEMA..

sa geram...!!! tetau sama dia or sama diri sendiri...
tapi yang pasti hati sa sakit saat ini...
i pretend again!! haizzz!!!...
geram sebab pa yg sa harap tidak kesampaian...
dalam kepala cuma hal ni saja...
mungkin bagi dia 'NEXT TIME' masih ada...
tapi bagi saya itu satu hal yg belum pasti...
he dont know what would happen tommorow...
and i dont know when ' NEXT TIME' will appear again...
Hurmmm...! biarla..

' SAYA BELUM BERSEDIA' - this words keep spinning in my mind...
so many negative thoughts come..and im fighting with the positive one...
tetau kenapa ayat ni tetiba menusuk tul ni hati...its hurt...really hurt..
feel wanna cry..bnyk ni persoalan dlm kepala...

i really2 hope i 'll get something tht makes me smile when i told him this..
becoz i already plan to brings him to meet my family on this wedding day ..
but pa ble buat he have another plan too..on that day...
maybe next time...sa cuba pujuk ati sebenarnya..tapi...huh!! tetau napa sakit ni ati..
i really hope dia akan choose sa 1st then bru kawan2 dia...
walaupun dia cakap ' Tgk lu keputusan si Luke' but still i feels this so strong that
he will not join me...biar la..give him time until he really2 ready to meet my family..
like i do to his family...huh!! maybe sa manja sgt thts y i cant accept this things..
Coz..i already plan this for quite long time..since i says HE IS THE ONE..

HURMMM!! biar la...walaupun sa mengharap sangat tapi sa tetap terima if he choose to be with his
friends that day... i wont forcing him...walaupun nanti he says he want to follow me still i would says NO..becoz i know how its feel when we're in DILEMA... x ikhlas nanti dia that day..if he join me la.. ermm..hopefully luke's application is approved...if not means LABUAN is just a dream..:)
hurmm...biar la.. Next day still have for mr to go there..

Ermmm...biar la tu...Forget it Rain...hal remeh jan ka c jadi complicated..
hopefully 'NEXT TIME' will still have for us...
when?? dunno yet...maybe tommorow..next week..next month or next year..
No body Knows...Only God know..coz he is the one who plan our life...
God, Good Bless Us... Amen!!!


P/S : lega skit ni hati walaupun sebenarnya its hurt a lot...
i wont Forcing coz i dont like it too...

.. New Year Thoughts ..

" HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011"
- Terima Kasih Tuhan kerna saya masih lagi di beri kesempatan untuk tinggal di Dunia ini..bernafas dan bersama2 dengan orang2 yang saya cintai.. -

rasa2 macam da setahun tak update..haa..padahal baru beberapa hari je..
New Year..New Day..New Life & New Hope..
4 perkataan yang kerap kali muncul dalam kepala..

Maknanya usia bertambah setahun lagi..pengalaman hidup juga semakin bertambah..dan untuk pertama kali nya saya terfikir tentang kehidupan saya selepas ini...kebahagiaan juga matlamat hidup...terfikir untuk menamatkan cara hidup saya sebelum ini.. dalam menuju usia matang (26 thn tu dah kira matang ke?? ) ada satu benda yg mengusik hati nurani saya.. benda yang selama ini saya simpan dan elak.. kekadang rasa diri macam lucu..hahha..! tapi yang pasti hal ini semakin kuat berpaut pada luluh hati...OMG!! i think im getting matured already..hahahhah!

Tapi pada masa yang sama ketakutan itu mendahului segalanya..mengatasi segala keberanian yang selama ini saya pegang berabis...takut jika semua angan2 saya hancur dan pergi begitu sahaja..kerna sudah saya tetapkan angan2 ini adalah yang terakhir..biar macam mana sekali pun susah saya akan tetap berusaha..itu janji saya pada saat 2011 melabuh kan tirainya...

Orang2 sekitar asyik meluahkan azam2 baru mereka padahal benda itu sudah mereka jadi kan azam tahun lepas..saya juga begitu tahun2 lepas cuma pada tahun ini saya hanya ingin jadi diri saya yang sebenarnya..saya penat jadi hipokrit, Ego & Sombong pada diri sendiri...biar la pada tahun ini saya biarkan MASA membantu saya..bukan malas cuma saya penat untuk jadi seperti orang lain...

Huh..! titik airmata pertama untuk 2011 mengalir lagi.. yang pastinya saya rasa takut sangat..! kamu pasti tau apa yang saya maksudkan..saya takut kehilangan Si Dia...sejujurnya, Dia mempengaruhi 80% mood saya tahun ini...dan kalau boleh saya tidak mau kehilangan walau 1% pun.. Dia saya sudah kunci dengan kuat dalam hati...kalau pun nanti saya terpaksa buka balik biarla pada saat itu hati saya 100% rela..kerna saya tahu selepas ini hati saya akan jadi macam mana..

Memang susah mo percaya kalau saya bilang ' Saya mahu dia jadi sebahagian dari hidup saya selamanya ' - i want him to be the first one i saw every morning and the last one every nite...
saya mau dia jadi orang pertama yang saya bisa kongsi segala kesedihan dan kegembiraan saya... because i miss the way he talk to me... Honestly, i miss his Voice.. Everything lar..!!

i welcoming the New Year with Him..do you know how i feel?? im really2 happy..macam tia mo balik jak time tu..kalau boleh mau stay trus dengan dia.. i miss the 2 days together with him and his family..

Hubby,

As u know you're the most priority in my heart now..

i hope u know that..

no one can change the fact that im in love with you..

i accept all yours as the new years come..

im trully hoping that theres a miracle for us this years..

more happiness and love..

more patient and caring..

but the most things that i wish is i hope there is more trust between us..

i dont know what bothering you most but i do hope that its won't distrub us..

you're everything in my life now..

the most important 'THINGS' i wanna have..

Hubby,

im afraid to says ' YOU'RE MINE '

but i wish that you are tottaly mine..

i dunno how to express my feels actually..

but to tell you the truth that IM TRULLY IN LOVE WIT U!!

i know i already told you dis b4..

I LOVE U DAMN MUCH!!

no one can change you in me now..

i just hope something precious happen to my life this years...! thats what keep pop-in my mind..
i will do everything..sacrifice what i have even i have to cry a lot..i dont care anymore coz im serious this time..

God,

i let all my dreams to you..

help me this time..

i need an extra strenght so i can fight any bad things that distrub my plan..

i Love him and want him to be mine..

i need your help on that...

Thanks again for everything that you've plan for my life..

im happy and really thankful..

enough for today!! will update later..2011 will be mo challenging for me..and i will share it here..
everything..! the happy and sad moments..the laughter and the tears.. the smile and the hope..
and the most important is the LOVE and the DREAMS..


P/S : i miss u Hubby.. im thinking of you from the first entry till the end of this post..every moment is YOU!!..

..Christmas Is Coming..

.. 2 more days and CHRISTMAS is coming..i was so excited!!! will taking leave from 24th to 31hb..hee... a long Holidays!! i dont care as long as i have a time for my family and myself too..

So sad coz i cant celebrate it with my Hubby... But, Its ok.. Next year still have for us..hee.. cant wait..

.. Tahun ini bagi peluang diri masing2 celebrate sendirian.. Freedom for doing anything as long as we know the limit.. Dalam masa 2 hari ni i hope that i can make myself calm... dunno what is that..but something keep bothering me..hati ndak senang... Huh..! Relax Rain...!! dont make its become your bigger worries that disturbing your Christmas Mood.. i let myself become the old one just for this time... Hopefully everything in control.. i just need to refresh back the smell of CHRISTMAS that i used to feel before...i miss it so much..!! and i dont want anything disturbing me eventhough it is about someone i love... kalau boleh i dont want to think about it for that day..its time for us to celebrate the day with our own way.. He is with his Way and im with mine.. its didnt mean anything actually its just becoz i already promise to myself that i wont disturbing Him that day.. coz i know when i think about it too much it will ruined my days.. Sorry to says that..!

.. i wanna let this anger go from myself..its hurt to keep it...i wanna says it but i know nothing gonna change it too.. i know He will do that too even i says i dont like.. so the good conclusion is just stay that way and change one by one... and as for me of course i get mad but i keep telling myself that nobody is perfect and i have to accept it.. coz i know next time everything gonna be as what i wish...as i says before..i wont forcing Him.. as long as He know that i dont like thats was enough for me...i wont change people... let He changed by himself.. itu lagi POWER..!

.. Huh..! Enough about him..! hee.. 25hb we'll celebrate the Family Days VS Christmas Days.. im so exicted..! i miss family gathering..eating too much..singing..laughing..playing a games and of course its time to Chit Chat with thems... WhoooOOoo!! im on a good moods now..hee.. Cant waitttt!!!...

.. Will not update for a fews days..hee.. will come back at the end of the year..posting my last post on 2010.. Summary for the whole year.. so wait for me ya..

So i wish you all :-

** MERRY CHRISTMAS 2010 & HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011**

..HUH..

..hUh..!!! No Mood since yesterday...this eyes is killing me...tensennnnn!

..kan bagus jadi butA ( iskk..pa yg d repekkan nie )

..penat melayan..huh!

..since dari budak2 till now..masih juga..pigi klinik ubat yg sama juga d bagi

..klinik swasta pun ble jadi untung gara2 mata ini..last2 aku pla yang bankrup..!

..Pakai cermin mata?? camna la wajah tu aahh? ermmm...x ble imagined!

..misti buruk..dah la wajah tak secantik mana..huhuhu..

..bertekad mau ke pakar mata lah ni...paksa diri..jangan takut ( membagi semangat diri sendiri)

..Apa2 pun besok mungkin saya cuti akan MC sendiri dengan mengunakan alasan ' MATA MERAH'

..Huh..whatever..! ( dalam masa yg sama berdoa agar mata sembuh sebelum sabtu)

..Sabtu ni ada family gathering temau mata menspoilkan every pose pada ari tu...
( HOPEFULLY)


p/s : Saya Rindu Kamu Encik Ronald.. '(>_<)'.. bilakah lagi akan ketemu??.. Huh! kamu buat hati ini tidak keruan...
- L.O.V.E -

- LOVE IS... -

Love is the greatest feeling,
Love is like a play,
Love is what I feel for you,
Each and every day,
Love is like a smile,
Love is like a song,
Love is a great emotion,
That keeps us going strong,
I love you with my heart,
My body and my soul,
I love the way I keep loving,
Like a love I can't control,
So remember when your eyes meet mine,
I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul into you,
Right from the very start.

New Year LOVE!!!

as the year go one step ahead so my age also...im going to 25 years this coming march...my family always ask me.." WHY NOT BRING YOUR BF HERE" ??..so the answer that i always use is " I HAVE NO BF, SO HOW CAN I BRING HIM HERE..??..and the feedback that they always give is that they say im too choosy...of course i am [ x la teruk sgt..] but, i just leave them with a big smile on face and telling them that someday i'll bring HIM to them...that's why sometime i hate balik kampung coz they'll ask me everything abt this...i don't like speaking abt something that i also not so sure...only God now who is suits to me..(",)

im not a choosy person actually..but if it's is because a PARTNER of a LIFETIME i should be...it's not easy for me to falling in love with a man...there's a lot of things i will think before choosing them..im not into a handsome , rich or tough man...i like someone SIMPLE...the one who can make me smile when i think of him..laugh because their jokes..touching with everything they do to me...the way they makes me feel comfortable whenever i am with him...i love my family and the way i live my life...and it will be an advantage if he got a same interest with me...i hate silence coz im a silent person but sometime too talkactive..

Once i fall in love.. the man will always stay HERE in my heart and mind...that's why im so cold sometimes to some people who come to me especially man..i don't like giving them hope..if i say i don't like means NO!..but if im happy and comfortable with him so it's means there's a hope for HIM!!...i dun like other people to introduce me..i like if i fall for him out of my control..the reason that i also dunno...:)

Maybe someday my turn will come again to feel how good , romantic and happy i am being a GF to someone...being treat as a princess like im dying tommorow...sometimes i feel jelouse seeing my friends & family members with their lovers...so cute!..crying alone becoz of that is always happen to me...[ and i always wish he come back to me...treat me like them..]..

New year...i hope it's brings a new hope to me...NEW LOVE that i wish to be the last!!..
God Bless Me!!...to YOU [ you that ever come to my life and change my whole life ] that i missed so much..may this coming New Year will brings you a lot of happiness in your life and take a good care!!..