VALENTINE'S DAY!

Today is valentine!...but im here ALONE!..hehehhe...
it's ok..as long as im hapy enjoying this day is enough for me...
Today is all about LOVE..early morning all the radio station playing the sentimental love songs that makes me dont wanna get up...heheheh..
the songs make me sleep thight!!...
my cousin's & my roomate's handphone didnt stop ringing...maybe it's their bf sms...only my HP in silent mode...kasehan kan...:)
yesterday he sms me...just wishing me " happy V days'..emm..that's enough if he still remember me..:)
but why my heart beating so fast..am i angry or still missing him..huh!
yep...im mising him!..why the time past so slow...when will this thing stop...or am i the one who didnt allow it happen...??

It's Valentines...But..?

it's valentine's day..but why?
My heart still hurts,
and causes me pain,
I wish I could just see him again,
I thought we would be together,
from now till forever,
but something took that away,
now I had to start my own days,
but why am I still stuck
carrying the pain,
I thought the pain was over
till I spoke of your name
now it's all back to haunt me again
I still hold the memories of you and I
why oh why did we have to fight
we were both young
but I thought it was true love
do you ever wish you could hold me again?
now it's too late
now it's all gone
because now we both chose to move on.
do you ever wonder
do you still care
do you ever shed tears,
I didn't I was being strong
that's how I learned to move on
but now it's back to haunt me
and I realize I still care
I wish I could turn back all the years
and make you stop
and make you listen
and make you see
that you were meant to only be with me.
we use to laugh
we use to love
we use to be close as a dove
gosh I wish you could see me once again
I love to laugh
I love to love
gosh all I wanted was your sweet hugs
but now my heart is squished like a bug
once again the pain has risen
now I have to get it back to hidden
please take care in what ever you do
but please always know that I did love you..
" HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY, DEAR FRIEND!"

~ Jahat ka Saya?..~

kekadang bila baca balik setiap yg tertulis di sini terrasa diri ni terlalu kejam...
tapi apa kan daya...hati ini terlalu sakit setiap kali mengingat kembali apa yang terjadi...
terasa diri ini tidak berguna...terasa diri ini terlalu naif...
membiarkan setiap yg berlaku dan terus menerima nya sebagai satu takdir...
terasa ingin saja membenci diri sendiri kerana membiarkan orang yang di kasihi memperlakukan
aku sebegini...orang yg di percayai mampu memberikan kebahagian dan kegembiraan..
huh!!...tapi itu semua hanya angan2 yang tidak kesampaian...

tapi kenapa hati masih tidak dapat menerima takdir ini...
kenapa diri masih merindui dan mengingati orang itu...arrgghhhh!!..
kenapa susah untuk melupakan nya...
PERGILAH WAHAI KENANGAN!!!!!...