wow...its been too long i didnt write...heheheh...sorry guys!...
today im thinking not to write about HIM anymore...im remembering him but i relize that i have to stop it...all this way i learn a lot but my mistakes is that i still HOPING!..
i view his profile a lot just to know whats going on with him...
last week i know something happen to his mum..i dunno why..but i feel so scared..sad..worry..
feeling as a friend that i used to have before still strong in my heart!..hopefully everything gonna be ok..
God, last time i ask u to show me wether he is the best choice for me and u show me something that i really dun want !..but i dun want to care about that..coz i know its gonna be happen someday..but now im asking u again...please let him have his happiness coz i care more about that..bless his family!...
my weakness is i cant stand seeing someone i love and care in sadness...i better feel it than know they have it!
i dream a lot about my loved ones ( FAMILY + BFF) lately...i feel concerned everything about them...i hope to be with them...smiling with their jokes...having fun with them..cooking them something...eating together with them...
huh...i actually dunno what to write...i just write something to let all this BLUE feeling out!..
coz there's something in my heart that keep bothered me...something that i dunno how to explain...only God know what thats..and im still adking Him to tell me what is it..but until now i still didnt get it...maybe its because i seldom go to church...(",)..
i need time to do that...saya mahu menghadap dia dengan keikhlasan hati saya...i will not do it juz bcoz i have to do that..its not me...i know he planning my LIFE in a good way...
LORD, bless me...i need my strength back...!
