Give Up?

have you ever feel wanna give up on something you really care?? i want!! really tired taking care of my own heart. Tired wif works and nobody i can talk to. i miss being single. Nothing to care. Nothing stressing me. i can do anything i want. Go everywhere i wanna go. Sometimes i wanna talk to him, wanna says i want to give up on him. Goshhh!! am i bad??? tell me.. i cant stand wif this life.. its seem that im the only one who is struggle to make it true.. Huh!! im BORED & TIRED with my LIFE.

..Sakitkan Bila RINDU datang melawat HATI..

[When i miss you, i dont want to go far...i just have to look inside my heart coz thats the only place i can found you..]

i miss that Guy again..just talk to him two hours ago..
even i dont really like the conversation bt still thats 'feed' my loneliness today..

feel a little bit angry..bored...unstatisfied...
its all becoz that small matter...
my mood gone..feel like 'HUH! ~ WHY SHOULD BLAME ME..'
suddenly feel 'gerigitan'..
hilang trus tu mood mau minta kana sayang2...

But, luckily its not effect my feels too much...
i still can control it..
.i manage to handle it ( terpaksa berdiam diri..tunggu Dia yang start becakap..)
if not memang i dah off phone tu..
huh! Rindu kekadang menyakitkan...!
bila ia tidak terluah dengan hati yang gembira..
LOVE challenge my days every second..
Sabarkan separuh dari iman..hee..!
Tak kisah la Rain...:)
The most important now is accepting each others imperfection..
i know and really sure that we will manage it ..Coz, we love each other..
HOPEFULLY!!

..I KNOW ITS ONLY BEEN A FEWS DAY I LAST SAW YOU BUT IT ALREADY FEEL LIKE ETERNITY FOR ME..SO I SIT DOWN AND COUNT THE TIME I GET TO SEE YOU AGAIN..

I MISS YOU, HUBBY!!

i want to ignore that small matter but so sorry coz sometimes i cant do that..

P/S: The worst things to have lappy at home..i ended it with blog and never care about the time..and now its 11.47pm and my eyes still open wide..so Fresh!..
i say i want to sleep already 2 hours ago to Him..but, im still here..
Pa2 pun i nak paksa mata kiut i ni tido..if not gurantee tommorow morning will yawning every second..hahahha!
Gud Nite everyone..MUAXXX! for my Hubby..

..I Care For YOU..

rasa sakit ati belum ilang lagi...dari semalam cuba nak cool down tapi i gagal..

huh! sakit kan bila kita tak dapat nak lepaskan semua kemarahan yg ada dalam diri..

menangis pun tidak dapat menenangkan hati i..

semalam rasa nak lempar jak handphone kat dinding..biar hancur berderai..!

i bukan nak jadi queen control..kalau boleh i tak nak ambik tahu pun apa yg awak buat..

but i cant! coz i care everything about you..

what you do...where are you..everything!

becoz i do love you more than i ever think..

kalau boleh i tak nak miss satu hal pun yang berkaitan dengan awak..

So, please do care my feelings too... i tak mau lebih..i just nak you bagitahu i aktiviti you..

im so sorry..maybe kali ni i tegas sikit..bukan nak tunjuk ego..tapi i nak you tahu yang tahap kesabaran i ada batasnya.. i penat tau layan feeling i sendiri..pujuk diri sendiri..

i dont want to change you..biar you yang change diri you sendiri.. tapi boleh kah cuba untuk jaga hati i.. i bukan manja.. i bukan nak minta perhatian tapi nak u tahu yang i ni ambil berat tentang semua hal yang berlaku antara kita.. i tak mau benda remeh temeh macam hal semalam buat kita jauh...

i know its not easy to let all that go... dun wori i always be here to help you..all i need is your responsibilities... we change 1 by 1...

kalau boleh i tak nak benda lain ganggu relationship kita.. im scared ok.. everytime its haunted me.. i try my very best not to push you hard but so sorry the feelings always make me fell down..

sampaikan im more sensitive with all you do..apa lagi kalau itu adalah sesuatu yang i tak suka.. Sorry... im really a bad GF..!

i just want simple yet memorable a.k.a romantica relationship...(^_^)v

kalau boleh i tak mau hubungan yang penuh dengan stress.. Boleh ka??..

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

Sorry if i always like this...

Sorry if i just wrote rather than saying this to you..

coz i know only tears will tell you all.. my bad! ~

p/s: i just need an understanding!..nothing else..i know nobody is perfect so do i..but i just need someone to care a little bit about my feels.. Love you Hubby!..

-Thought for the EARLY MORNING that i tought still NIGHT-

[Princess Rain : Wahai Hujan, tak sakit ke badan kalau asyik turun tak henti - henti??]

it's 1.30am in the morning...i cant sleep!! uarrgghhh! what happen this..

im not sleepy..im not yawning..my eyes open wide!!!

ni mesti gara2 penangan IPOH KOPI PUTIH...

ari ni dah masuk ari ke 2 ai minum minuman ni..

and guess what??yesterday i sleep at 3am...

i should stop drinking that..i guess..

tak ble tahan..akibatnya pegi keja dengan wajah ngantuk..

dah lah bangun lambat tiap hari..

kalau ari2 minum gerenti jadi MRS. PANDA la ai..:))

Si Hubby dah tido sejam yang lepas..sempat lagi ai dengar dia berdengkur kat telefon..

Owh! so Cute!!...suddenly missing Him..:((

tak sabar nak dating nanti malam..nak pegang2 boroi dia..(^_^) Boleh??

~.. Senyum nakal..~

alah tak yah nak fikir len2 lar...hee'

hak masing2 nak buat apa pun kan..:))

Weekend is our time...iwill go and stay at his house..with his family..

maybe some of you think that its not good..

but im an open minded person.. hak masing2..keputusan di tangan sendiri right?

but i wont say you wrong...:))

your right to says what on ur mind..upsss! cam slogan FACEBOOK la pula kan..hee

ermm..akhirnya A PIECE HEART OF ME ada page !! Sila singgah sekejap ya..jangan lupa tekan BUTANG SUKA..(^-^)..

da lama da try nak buat tapi ai masih tak pandai2..Tapi berkat usaha gigih akhirnya pada 7hb April 2011 termetrai la sudah KEKASIH GELAP ku...ai sangat2 berterima kasih pada suma kengkawan yang telah menSUDIkan jari mereka mengklik BUTANG SUKA dengan tikus masing2...hee..HAPPY!

Ermm..tepat jm 2am..! Nak tido lar..paksa mata ai yang kiut ni tuk tutup..uargghhh!! ( menguap cara taip) hee..

I tido dulu k...

Tunggu kedatangan post ai ya.. MUNGKIN NANTI besok ai rajin nak menaip..apa2 pun selamat tidur !!ZZZZzzzzZZZzz..

p/s : Si hubby...sori tadi ai tak sempat nak KISS, says I LOVE YOU & NITE...sebab ai tak sampai ati nak setopkan bunyi 'CUTE' itu walaupun pada realitynya telinga sakit..:)) But, the sound make me miss you damn much!!! tadi ai sempat lagi dengar SUARA MACHO kegemaran Hubby...I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! believe me...