When BREATH stop!!

"Birth and death; we all move between these two unknowns."

Bryant H. McGill

DEATH??? Everyone know this word. Its scaring right?? Honestly, im not scared of it as we know no one could escape this. Bt, what i scared is Leaving everyone i love.

First time i know about death is when our Grandmother died when im only 6yrs old.. Followed by my Uncle when im 11yrs.. And the most saddest Death happen to me is when My Dad passed away 3yrs after my Uncle. The most shocking things happen in my life. Its changed my life 100%. I lost my STRENGTH. Lost my FAITH. Times flies and i lost someone again.. My Great Grandmother & My GrandFather in both side. Memories remain as one of the things they Left to us. I know that, but theres always a time tears fall down again after many2 years. No one will ever Forget!!.. I know U all too..

Im 27yrs now.. to many people leaving me for 'another' world. When is my TURN?? nobody know. God do His job nicely. Maybe today is my last day, Maybe tommorow.. No one know.. Thats the only secret God never tell us. I cry..Regret...I only rent this world. Someday i may leaving Everyone here.. Will they missing me when in 'Gone'..?? Scared they will forget me.. :'(

Huh!! I dunno why suddenly talking about this. Last tuesday, A friend passed away. He is too young to die..only 24yrs old and have to leave his beautiful wife and a cute little baby girl. Sometime i feel its Unfair coz everyday you read his dream for his Family. He only know he got heart attack last week.. and passed away this tuesday. What a waste..

Sometime, God takes us without notice. So, please do check our own body. Medical Check up is important ~ Im saying this to myself as i was scared of this words

" HOSPITAL".

God, May This Easter bring peace to all the soul that you have called to meet you, Bring them to the place you've promise, Amen.

Last, HAPPY EASTER DAY to those who celebrate! May our life much more better than before. (Notice to myself)..

p/s: I have no mood to WORK there!!.. its stressing me.. Everyday i have to keep all the things that hurting me and i dunno who should i told.. Been too long didnt open BLOG and today i feel much better than before.

** Say NO to ciggarette, Beers, Cholestrol & Stress coz its effect to many dieses **

..WHATEVER GIRL!!..

im on FB just now..and i recognise something!! Did she block me again???..WHY??

but when i check my BF fb she is still there??..weird?? angry with me??..why?? WHATEVER!!

I DONT CARE!!!! you maybe got another reason but im not going to be that nice again! there's no more NEXT girl!!.. Do what you want!!

huh! She distrub my mood today..! if you think that is the best then do it!!...btw, im not that close to you...so your right if you wanna do that..but why only me? Do i make you angry? Tell me..Blocking someone without reason is a coward action when at the same time we know each other!..

( i dunno why i get angry knowing her might blocking me..maybe this is the 2nd time.. so NEXT i have to says sorry coz i have to remove you from my friendlist..)

P/s: i just check my FB and she is there already! should i gave her another one chance!? ~ Luckily im not that mean! i'll Give him another chance!

..Sakitkan Bila RINDU datang melawat HATI..

[When i miss you, i dont want to go far...i just have to look inside my heart coz thats the only place i can found you..]

i miss that Guy again..just talk to him two hours ago..
even i dont really like the conversation bt still thats 'feed' my loneliness today..

feel a little bit angry..bored...unstatisfied...
its all becoz that small matter...
my mood gone..feel like 'HUH! ~ WHY SHOULD BLAME ME..'
suddenly feel 'gerigitan'..
hilang trus tu mood mau minta kana sayang2...

But, luckily its not effect my feels too much...
i still can control it..
.i manage to handle it ( terpaksa berdiam diri..tunggu Dia yang start becakap..)
if not memang i dah off phone tu..
huh! Rindu kekadang menyakitkan...!
bila ia tidak terluah dengan hati yang gembira..
LOVE challenge my days every second..
Sabarkan separuh dari iman..hee..!
Tak kisah la Rain...:)
The most important now is accepting each others imperfection..
i know and really sure that we will manage it ..Coz, we love each other..
HOPEFULLY!!

..I KNOW ITS ONLY BEEN A FEWS DAY I LAST SAW YOU BUT IT ALREADY FEEL LIKE ETERNITY FOR ME..SO I SIT DOWN AND COUNT THE TIME I GET TO SEE YOU AGAIN..

I MISS YOU, HUBBY!!

i want to ignore that small matter but so sorry coz sometimes i cant do that..

P/S: The worst things to have lappy at home..i ended it with blog and never care about the time..and now its 11.47pm and my eyes still open wide..so Fresh!..
i say i want to sleep already 2 hours ago to Him..but, im still here..
Pa2 pun i nak paksa mata kiut i ni tido..if not gurantee tommorow morning will yawning every second..hahahha!
Gud Nite everyone..MUAXXX! for my Hubby..

- LOVE vs THE PLAN -

[ Our 1st Pic after declare..:) ]

.. 7 month 1 days!.. Thanks god..i really thankful!..

1st time i feel the HOPE! I see the way..

i can smell the happiness..

and i just dunno what im going to do and became if someday i lost everything!

He is the one now! Jealousy stay everyday wit me..haha!

Dunno how act like i dont care! Even the smallest thing pun i'll get angry..

but jst marah2 sayang..hee..

as the day came and chang everyday i really hope that ths love will last til death!

Fuhh! Ayat tu bah..hee! But i really meant it..

THE PLAN also going to be happen soon..and i cant wait 4 the day!

Hopefully its happen as what we already plan..

I know God u'll always be wit us!

Keep us strong to face all the matters that come across ths relationship!

LOVE YOU SO MUCH HUBBY!!