- S!O!R!R!Y -

it's 1.o9am in the morning and its mean we've been together for 3 months 1 days..:)

Huh..! time flies so fast oo..i also never expected it..

now im listening Christian Bautista's Songs again.. and he is the one on my mind now..

Sometimes i've thingking.. Bagaimana Dia bisa bertahan melayan perangai sa selama ini??.. hee..

i think that sometimes im too much..! but still he stay with me..

i admit that im demanding..!

i am bad..i know it..i dunno how to treat him...i dunno how to show him that i cared...

but to tell you Hubby..

"..no matter what i say or do its all becoz i cared too much on you..

sometimes i feel angry whenever you say ' Saya meginum' .. honestly, im not stoping you from that but i just cant stop my feelings.. i dunno how to act cool for something i dont like.. So sorry for that... i know i makes you feel down whenever we talked about this.. and im really sorry...its my fault..! i still remember our last conversation about this.. i know i make u sad..

Thats why i told my self not to force you again.. i want you to change becoz of yourself not becoz i want it..

i keep telling myself.. ' Rain, please back to the basic..' bukan kerana merajuk..but its becoz i dont want it burdening you, Hubby.. I love You and i want you to feel comfortable with me.. i'll let all this behind me as long as you're happy with me.. I only need it...nothing else..

"..we've been connected all this time by an invisible string attached, From your heart to mine we circled the obvious like satelites that roam around the earth.. No, im never gonna let you go.."

i dont care how is you..your behaviour.. you smoke or you get drunk.. i accept it..! i just have to be patient..coz i know someday you'll change..by yourself.. thats what i want.. i luv u damn much and i dont want this two things disturbing our day everyday.. i know you need your freedom too..thats why i've thingking this for quite long time... i just hope you know your limit and keeps my words.. ' jan asarok'.. i just need it..\(".")/

Sorry..! really sorry if i've hurt your feels through my action or words.. ! - I Love You and i Hope you to be the last one for me.."

Huh..! i just hope next year will bring more love, happiness and happy moment to us..thats why i cant wait for New Year...cant wait to see what God has ready for me..Cant wait to know what gift i'll received.. cant wait to face new challenge..cant wait to meet new people.. but i hope nothing can make my tears to come..even i know that no one know what would happen but i think im not ready for PAIN & TEARS in 2011.. I hope so...

Pa2 pun.. its time to take a nap..its been to late already...nanti lambat bangun lagi besok.. huh! mata pun mula meragam..! See you next Post! - LUV YA -

..Its YOU..

ermm...just come back from Tuaran..celebrating the birthday party..! its was fun..really fun..! i laugh all the time even sometimes the red eyes spoiling my mood..hee..but still i can says that this is one of my favourite year end's party for 2010...enjoying it with my beloved family...

Suddenly missing him much!!..cam ndak puas jak ceta ma dia tadi..hee...tapi pa ble buat dia pening...Miss hearing his snoring...dunno why..but i feel more closer to him whenever i hear it eventhough just hear it through phone..

im listening Christian Bautista's songs now...honestly its remind me to him...whenever i miss him i'll hear all the songs..

OMG..!! this feeling can't stop my tears..wish him to wake up and call me again..i miss his voice..! damn!!..padahal baru jak off phone tadi..haizzz!! this is crazy..!

"...It’s your smile,Your face, your lips that I miss,Those sweet little eyes that stare at meAnd make me say,I’m with you through all the way..Cause it’s you Who fills the emptiness in me..It changes ev’rything, you see, When I know I’ve got you with me.."

One of my favourite songs by Christian Bautista.." YOU" Just for Him!!..

"..You give me hope,The strength, the will to keep on;No one else can make me feel this way, And only you Can bring out all the best I can do; I believe you turn the tide And make me feel real good inside.."

Hubby...i'll be by your side as long as you want me...i'll try to be your favourite 'BLOG'..Following every

' POST' you says...i love it!!..

...Early Morning Toughts...

Gud Morning..!!! it's 4.30am in the morning...OMG!! cannot sleep...!

duduk depan PC dengan secawan cofee mix..hee..

try mo tutup mata tapi tidak berjaya..kenapaka??

Tgk picture balik2 tanpa rasa bosan..Oh, saya rindu Si Hubby..!

Kenangan muncul kembali..hee..semuanya dari A to Z..

haisshhh!! tetiba pula hati bergetar..RINDU !!

mau jumpa ooo..huhuhu..! Bilakah???

tia sabar..!!

i miss my FRIEND aka BOYFRIEND = Si Hubby !!

i remember everything he do that day..FUNNY!! i smile a lot !! ngeeee!

i know i never being like this before..But when im with him i change..

HAPPY..

SMILE..

LAUGH..

JOKING..

JEALOUS..

ANGRY..

TALKACTIVE..

he change me to be someone else..and i love it..

Wish to Dating with him again like that day..hee..

filrting...hahhaha..!

staring at his face...

laughing with him..

kiss him...

Hug him...

sitting beside him..eating together..

most of all is i miss the time he sings a song..my favourite things about him..

the way he teasing me..

OMG!! i miss everything about him.

p/s : saya rindu kamu Encik Ronald!!

-- Kalau Ada yg belanja kan bagus..! -

* SODAPPPPPP!!! im craving for this...yummyyy!! sepakah yang sudi mau belanja?? *
si Hubby???? hee.. lama rasanya tidak merasa kek coklat..air liur meleleh2 nampak ni picture..
harap2 lah sabtu ni they choose coklat cake for the birthday party.. Hopefully..!

My Favourite Ice creammm..!! Si Hubby help me..hahhaha..!!
Gumuk pun gumuk lar..i tak kesah dah..! ( padahal dalam hati ' saya mau kurus' )
tapi ni ice cream memang tak kan d lepaskan...Si hubby????

This One tooo...Cadburyyyyy!! Won't stop choosing you..! si Hubby??? hee...
jan c lama...hahahha! i know he like it too...nanti mo pujuk dia lai ni.."(<_>)"
( Si Hubby..if u tebaca this post jan pula pura2 tak tau yee...)

..HUH..

..hUh..!!! No Mood since yesterday...this eyes is killing me...tensennnnn!

..kan bagus jadi butA ( iskk..pa yg d repekkan nie )

..penat melayan..huh!

..since dari budak2 till now..masih juga..pigi klinik ubat yg sama juga d bagi

..klinik swasta pun ble jadi untung gara2 mata ini..last2 aku pla yang bankrup..!

..Pakai cermin mata?? camna la wajah tu aahh? ermmm...x ble imagined!

..misti buruk..dah la wajah tak secantik mana..huhuhu..

..bertekad mau ke pakar mata lah ni...paksa diri..jangan takut ( membagi semangat diri sendiri)

..Apa2 pun besok mungkin saya cuti akan MC sendiri dengan mengunakan alasan ' MATA MERAH'

..Huh..whatever..! ( dalam masa yg sama berdoa agar mata sembuh sebelum sabtu)

..Sabtu ni ada family gathering temau mata menspoilkan every pose pada ari tu...
( HOPEFULLY)


p/s : Saya Rindu Kamu Encik Ronald.. '(>_<)'.. bilakah lagi akan ketemu??.. Huh! kamu buat hati ini tidak keruan...
- L.O.V.E -

..Sweet Memories..

.. i miss him already..! God help me..dunno how to handle this feels now..something missing in my life...i just miss everything about him...! feel wanna cry..! this monday blues always disturbing me..kenapa la masa berlalu terlalu cepat...the time wasnt enough for me..i miss cuddling under his arm..! and mostly the time we spent together..! dunno when will i have a chance to do it again..miss his hug!!...My Gosh, what happen to me..so many feels in my heart now..but the most is I MISS HIM damn much...

.. 11/12/2010 - Miss the day so much!!!..can i have that day again??..its makes me miss him like crazy..after been a month didnt meet finally on that day i meet him..its feels like u meet your heaven..maybe my statement sounds too much but thats what i feel..i've been so patient before and when the time i've waited so long comes its like the days is yours...only yours..! - I MISS HIM - maybe my words wasnt enough to show it but im trully deeply missing you Hubby..!

..Hubby, Now im counting the days to meet you again..maybe tommorow , next week or next month but im sure will spend the time again with you.. Dun worry im gonna be more patient this
time.. Becoz when i meet you again next time i wanna make it the most favourite day in my life.. The unforgetable sweet memories with you becoz you're the most special in my life now..and im scared to death to loose you.. Please stay with me forever.. Can ka??.. coz i just dunno how my life would be if you leave me...

.. Hubby, for the first time in my life i gave all my hopes to a guy.. and its YOU.. and i hope you to fulfill the space in my heart.. No one else..! and promise me that you're the one that i can hold forever.. [ Haizz...im EMO again..tears come again..why my heart feel so hurt.. whatever!! ]

.. Hubby, you are my love..the one that i cant live without.. the one that i think about all time and i cant seem to get you off my mind.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH - no words can express my real feels..i just hope that you can feels it no matter what i do and say to you.. i dont care if others think im not serious but i need you to care about it..!!

*** I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, HUBBY***