~ S.T.R.E.S.S.~

arrrrgghhhh!!!!!...shet!!! stresss a lot!!!..bodoh!! Wednesday Suck!!..in not in mood! Whatever!! i just feel wanna go out from this situation!!.. benciii!!... everything seems makes me STRESS! wait till the end of April.. and i'll let this decision out.. cant stand! BORED!! HATE!! STRESS!! budu punya managenment! BOSS dia lagi palui! i need another JOBS!! i need new environment!!.. not happy with this company!!..tekanan jak yg sa dapat!..

p/s: im missing Him!!..:(( sakit ati bila tia kana layan..i need someone to tell my feels..but mybe he is busy..huh! RELAKSS!! i cant do anything!!

[ MISSING HIM + STRESS AT WORK = SAKIT KEPALA / MIGRAIN ]

*** Deactive FB for a while...i just need some reason to help me let all this blues feels out..i cant stand...the more im there (FB) the more i feel stress.. ****

~i handle MINE~

boring dengan sesetengah orang..

atau ada kah saya yg memboringkan...??

tak kisah lar..yang pasti saya bengang layan perangai kamu..

saya boring layan kamu yang asyik menyatakan:-

" Ya, saya memang baik.."

" Saya takut buat itu sebab ia satu DOSA.."

" Saya selalu pigi gereja..saya takut kalau sekali pun escape.."

alim sangat meh??..no need la to tell everyone that you go to church every week..

kalau hari2 sembayang pun tapi perangai masih juga tak berubah buat apa kan?

You have to watch yourself first so after that you can teach others to be good..

you dont have to tell everyone the same thing everyday especially me..

u know why?? becoz im sick with it...let me handle my life by my own..

im not good..i admit it..i do alot of sins..and the matters is only between me and God..

i know you've thinking the good for me..but i just dont like YOU!!..

show me that you are too good so i can accept everything you says..

going to church everyweek does'nt mean you are HOLY..

when everything you do everyday is still like someone who doesnt go...

please just live your own life..

no need to busy body with mine..

i'll handle my life with my own way..

~ Sori to others..i'll refering this to someone..but kalau ada yang terasa pa bole buat lar..siapa makan lada dia terasa pedas nya bah kan ~ So Cheers Guys!!..

p/s : Suddenly missing him!! No chat, No SMS, No Call...my life turn to EMPTY!!..wish that i was there..beside him..EVERYDAY!..can i have that time??..its SCARING! thinking future really makes my life full with SURPRISE! either good or bad i have to accept it! No excuse..how i wish times flies so fast so that im not in this ZONE for such a long days!!..wishing the BEST for US!..

Shut Up??

im thinking not to ask too much..

means i just wanna try to SHUT UP sometimes..

coz the more i ask the more it become complicated

i just wanna give some space to us..

dunno why but this fews day i easily sensitif with this small matter..

or mybe its because i miss the old days...

how i wish time flies back to that day..

p/s: i miss my FIRST DAY!!..

..i keep a SECRET!!..

i know what mean SECRET since a kid..
i try my best to keep it...
sometimes i do..
sometimes i broke..
im not a good keeper at all..
i'll keep it as long as i can..
but when its start to haunting me all i can says is "IM SORRY, i told them the secret"..

i keep my SECRET..
as long as i want..but overall i still keep all my SECRET till now..
havent told everyone and its will remain as my only SECRET!..


P/S: Hubby..you'll be the biggest SECRET that i wanna keep..i wont share it to anyone..
and someday when THE DAY come i want everyone know my 'SECRET'..

~ its THE DAY!! ~

~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! ~

im 26th years old already!!!

am i look that old???...

hahhahah! whatever!!

First of all wanna thanks to JESUS CHRIST!!

for still letting me stay and enjoy this beautiful world..

thanks for this AGE..

thanks for giving me a beaitiful & stongest MUM in the world..

without her i would not here right now...

thanks also for giving THEM to me...

who is still staying with me no matter what i've done to them..

they're my Friend but not my BFF...

sometimes i like to call my friend as my BFF..

because now i realise that them who i call BFF act like a friend to me..

weired rite..:))

but i dont want to think abt it anymore...its time for us to move as our own..

all i can say is " JUST LET IT BE" ~ U choose to be like that and i wont stop U!

im HAPPY but at the same time SAD..

IM HAPPY!

becoz i celebrate it without my " SINGLE" status like last2 years..

im happy that he is the 1st one to wish me...

im happy becoz i put my wish on him..

im happy becoz gonna celebrate it with him!

he say he got present for me..

hahahhah! cant wait for the sunrise to come!!..

overall IM HAPPY!!!!

But, IM SAD at the same time...

the people that i expect to wish early like last2 years havent wish me yet..

are they still angry at me???

my BFF who act like a FRIEND at last..

if only they know that i hope them to wish me...huhuhu!

im really sorry for what happen..

but i need you all to understand my situation too..

( ..i miss the moment with them..)

as the age increase 1 stage i wish :-

that im more matured..

that im more strong to face all my problems..

that im more healty..

that im mo slim & beautiful..( hahahha..! sempat lagi ma)

but the most important things is im more good to GOD!

and this years i added i more special wish..

" God, i wish that THE PLAN happen as what we planned..give us more hopes,love & trust to each other so that we can accept each other without any excuses..Thanks for giving us chances to know each other and help me God to make it REAL"

p/s: Si Hubby, thanks a lot for that birthday wishes..thanks for the LOVE! will always keep this feels only for you! Forever & Ever !!!

..i MISS him..do you get it??..

have you ever feel missing someone tht makes u cry suddenly??
i feel it now..huh! wish he know that...
its hurt but all i can do is just cry..:(

i can feel that i need his attention...
i need his nice words..
i need his warm smile..
i need his arms on my shoulder..
and mostly i need his kiss on my forehead..

huh!..perubahan hormon kali ni..
mo datang bulan kali..haizz..
suddenly, i became more MANJA..
his jokes makes me mad..
wish him to kuai2 me...
all i need is his attention...hee..

ermm...i just miss the old days...
the first month couple..hee..
dunno y..but i miss it...the feel that only you know how..
hee..hurmm! how i miss it...


p/s: How long should i have this kind of feels...
how i wish that time flies past..