...My Turn??...

suddenly i felt touched.. i felt it from the bottom of my heart..

am i will have a time to feel it?? i pray to God.. asking..

" can i have that happy moment??"

all this time i scared... scared that i cant have it as what i wish... i want it not becoz i should have it.. but becoz i want to share everything in my life with someone i love.. i want my happy ending... but the more i think abt it the more i feel scared..

Please god..let it be this time...

i promise to love him..

i promise to take care of him..

i promise to be with him no matter what happen...

i'll promise everything just to have him in my life..

Becoz He is everything to me...

I hope THE PLAN will happen like what we want..

i hope im more stronger to face everything..

only Him in my heart now.. no one..

you'll say im liar... but who cares...

my Own feel and only me know the truth!..

p/s : Hubby ~ You'll be the man that always win my heart..

no one can do that..even we always quarell over something still i want to be with you...

you should know that..

NO ONE its has to be YOU..~

..wat should i do??..

huh!..
its march again!!..its comes likes last years..
so thats mean im coming to new ' NUMBER' again..
of course its increase 1 step ahead!..
huh..im getting older again..:((

so many things in my head..
especially MONEY!!..
suddenly its disturb my days...
haizz!!!!...the DIGI BROADBAND really makes me moody!!
whatever!!!!!

actually this MOOD disturbing my day n nights since monday!!
dunno why but its hurt me a bit..
always like this..huh! its makes me hate myself more..
tensionn!!!!!...and i hate it..
the office things..!
the home things..!
and this personal things..!!
its really annoying!!..
arghhh!!..

i hate the things!!..
but i cant says it...all i can do is yelling without voice..
its makes me crazy!..
i just feel like wanna go somewhere!..
where i cant find all this things!..
alone..and doing the things i like...wish i was the old one..
i just cant TRUST myself!..
how can dis be..??
wat should i do..??
im tired!!...i need it to end fast!!..

Help me, God..
i just cant stand..i have no strenght to face it all...

how i wish you understand wat inside me..!
wat i LIKE and DISLIKE..

~ A touched Songs!! ~

Im in LOVE with this songs for the 1st time..
such a beautiful lyrics..
im soo touched!!..really touched!!
i feel wanna cry..
i know its more to islam..
but its doesnt matter rite??..
i have a lot of family members who is convert to islam..
so do my mum..

i like this songs very much!! and the singer too..

p/s: Hubby...i'll LOVE you for the rest of my life!!..

...i miss YOU...

hey...

I MISS YOU En. Ronald...

its been a a fews day i didnt meet you..

but i feel like its a month havent seen u..

i miss hugging you...

i miss seeing ur smile..

i miss hearing your jokes..

but most of all i miss u teasing me..

haizz!!! cant stand with this feels..

do you miss me like i do..??

wish you here..

Take a good care..

get well soon..

I LOVE YOU so much!!!

.~ Today is HIS birthday!! ~

Hey!!..

its your birthday lar!!..

" HAPPY BIRTHDAY EN. RONALD!!"

23 yrs old ody...

and me will be 26 yrs this coming mac..

see the different??

hee...people ask me how can i fall in love with some younger than me..

i dunno how to answer...i only tell them " LOVE IS BLIND"

its appear no matter what situation..

honestly..

last time i really anti wit a guy who is younger than me..

i 'll ignore them becoz of that AGE..

hahahah! jahatkan..

but...

see what happen to me now..

im in love with him..and i didnt see the age anymore...

He really makes me forgot whatever i dislike..

i turn to someone that i also didnt expect i would be..

what i know now is i love that guy no matter what!

Si Hubby,

sori i didnt prepare ur present!..

i forgot..my fault..

sori again for didnt sings u a birthday songs last nite..

my bad!!..malu..:((

and im really sorry for not at ur side this moment..

i wish i was there...taking care of you...

get well soon..:))

i hope that all your dream come true..

more hapiness..

more love..

more matured..

more funny..

more handsome..hahahha! ( jokes! - i love you the way u are)

but dont too slim aahh!..heheheh!

AMEN!!

~ i take this chance to say " I LOVE YOU!" - its not enough actually..i do everything just to make u happy~

p/s: Miss u so much!!..i wish to celebrate it wit u..:))

..New Hair..

New Hair!!

He says i look like MUMMY..

hahahhah! jahat oo kan...

biar la..even im not 100% statisfied but i still like it..

1st time try this kind of style..so i'll accept the result..

and 1 thing they say aftr look at me is..

" Rain, you look more chubby like this.."

hee..yep! i admit it!

p/s: En. Ronald..thanks sebab temankan saya kelmarin..walaupun hubby says honey look like mummy still i like to hear it..i love you!..i'll never forget that moments..i enjoy the whole day!