..a big THANK to her...

..i received this message from her...never wonder there's a comment that makes me feels so touched..it's make me wake up again..thinking a lot and of course smile without reason..thanks to
this Gurl..

"I don't 1 2 b a busy body but i cant help it.. i read ur latest post on ur blog and i say, hell yeah!! he is (ur ex) is a selfish a**hole...... his reason is so childish.... what abt him being hungry and u did not attend his needs? I say, if he really2 love u... he will be sincere in everything... and what with the
(from ur blog) *if i wake up late will you be waking up late too? whose gonna get the food ready on the table? and the babies are all cryin. dont think that im an independent guy and i can find food on my own and i know u can too! but i care for you... thats why i ask you if youre hungry or you need anythin? i need your care too, you know! i dont want to give u a clue that im hungry or what but u just have to figure that out yourself*....

im not that good either.... but... relationship lasts because of sincerity.... understanding... respect.....

sorry klu sa menyibuk but I think u r better w/out him..... REALLY

U r beautiful :)
And I believe there are more men out there that willing to be your man and can accept you for who u r and not for what u r not...
Like u said..
nobody is perfect..
So, if a man 1 2 love u...
They should love ur imperfection because u came with it....
If they can't accept it... they can F.off....


Just believe, everything happen for a reason....

May God bless u always...

And forgive me if I said anything that hurt ur feeling or klu sa menyibuk tahap dewa...:)

P/s: sa mo komen d blog ko tp x dpt...:)"

...i love the comments so much!!!..

..i don't MISS him anymore..

i don't miss him anymore...
thats what i feel rite now...there's something blocking all my feel before...
im happy...but at the same time i worried that i will hating him...
everything seems wanna left me but i dont feel like to stop it...
i feel good..like nothing ever happen between us...
like i never ever know him...
i dont feel jelouse..angry..sad..or hate...all i know is my feeling going smooth n easy to handle right now..they gone!!
im trying to find it again but all i feel is NOTHING!..
is that mean im moving On??
is that mean im not frust anymore?
ermmmm!!!..but why still i feel really empty?..

[ u the one who suffer me more than i ever thought..u left me alone...u make me cry a lot than i ever wonder...u laugh bt im sad..crying for what happen..sometimes i dunno why i still love you even last time you ever hurt me...why i been frustrated for almost 7 months becoz of you...silly me!!!...sometimes i wanna end everything that connect me to you but still i think abt our friendship...sorry to say that i dont miss you anymore..i dont love you anymore...i already forgot everything we ever do...i dont want to be pretender anymore...i just wanna live my life without you in my mind...i was tired holding it anymore..i just wanna let my mind rest and giving my ownself another chance to love someone else even im really sure that im HEARTLESS for man!!..i know time will help me to open it back as long as im letting you go from HERE..so im hoping that you'll find your own happiness and meeting ur future LIFE!!..still i cant stop myself praying for ur happiness...GBU!!..]

They Make My Life FUN and CRAZY!!..Luv U alll..!! ( dedicated this POEM to u all)

Friendship is something to hold on to
But for me that's not the case
Cause I don't feel I need to keep
Something that can't be erased

I am sure of what I have
Cause with you I have no doubt
For what we've built, can't ever fail
It's what I care about

I find it hard to describe
This thing that we share
Especially when there's nothing else
That ever could compare

Others always know
That together we will be
For there can never be another
"Tani and Kerrie"

Those two words, known all over
Might as well be one
Cause without a Kerrie, there is no Tani
I'm sorry, it just can't be done

For you're the "U", and I'm the "S"
And forever that will be
Cause together we make "US", and so
YOU COMPLETE ME!!

what is FRIEND actually...

sometimes i thinking too much on that...
am i ever have a very real bestfriend?
am i ever looking good to my friends?
huh!..i dunno bt still i felt that i didnt have the real one...
whatever la...i spent my whole life alone...and suddenly i have a lot of friend i guess...that's makes me feel weird...
an i hate this feels actually..arrrrghhh!!!!!!
dunno wat's going happen actually....
i just miss my OLD TERENCE...
the silent one (heheheh...sampai orang takut mo bercakap dengan saya)...
Memories come and gone...most of my secondary n primary schoolmate are somewhere i dunno..
i missed all we ever do..hahaah...the funny things thats still remain in my mind n heart..
now they have their own life with another friends...
maybe that's what life is...we will meet many kind of friends...different culture , character and af coz different gender..hahahhaha...sometimes having many friend is such a wonderful thing we ever do...but if we cant handle each of them it's seem like u dont have even 1 friends...
for me letting go our own EGO sometimes is such a briliant idea on getting the relationship stay longer..
try to learn them as we learn our own...no matter how bad they are still they have a little sweet things which ever make u smile, happy and laugh...remember that and u'll discover how wondeful them to you...



* ermmm....i just miss all my friend...im thinking what they doing right now...**

HATI - kenapa kah ia terlalu sakit!!..

sa tidak tahu kenapa hati sa sakit...macam mo menangis bila tgk gambar kawin dia (1st bf)...walaupun perasaan cinta sa ma dia tidak sekuat Dia (2nd bf) tp sa still rasa regret sangat...Geram, Sedih & marah dgn pa yg pernah dia buat sama sa...Jealous??.. maybe..sa cemburu bila tgk dia kawin duluan dari sa...biar la...jodoh dia duluan sampai so i just wish the best for him...
~HAPPY WEDDING DAY TO WONG KUAN FUNG!!~(",)

when is my TURN??

15th nie adik sa tunang..heheheh...happy for her...

tapi yg tak bestnya dorg balik2 ejek2 sa..heheheh..they ask, " ko bila lagi,,tgk c adik lagi duluan"..

i cant answer them..ol i can do is just SMILE and say.." biar la bah...jodoh dia yg duluan sampai..pa ble buat..( tp dlm hati cuma i ja yg tahu..)..

actually klu ble sa tidak mau adik sa yg duluan but i have to accept the fate kan..

i dunno why but i become more choosy than before..i upgrade the qualification already..hahhahaha...i dont want HIS to be exactly what i want but i only want the BEST..the one who always there for me in my ups and down..the one who's not leaving me when he says I LOVE U to me...i hate that kind of guy...really!!..accepting me the way i live my life, understanding and comforting me when im down...talk to me face to face...because i know its the only way to know whether he is the one for me or not...or is he serious or just wanna have fun with me...i already promise to myself that no one can ever hurt me again...NO ONE...i dont want to care what others will say about me...all i know is i wanna live my life in my own way...dont ever judge me for who i am coz im the only one who knows myself better..i suggest u all to watch yourself more...

i'll put this coldness until i found the one who really knows me...i hate liar and coward!!..they only know how to talk but act nothing...tidak bertanggungjawab!!....( huh, i hate this monday blues..whatever!!!!!..)

p/s : actually siok juga klu kena langkah bendul ni...coz i dapat GOLD RING for free...hahahhah!

* enough for today...will post another one bila i free for internet...(",)