Saturday, November 6, 2010

..A Love Letter..

Dearest Hubby,

Hi, how are you??...hee..i just feel want to write you a love letter...its 4.50 pm and you fill up my mind...thats why i wrote this..just to throw little bit so the next moment you can fill it up again...ermmm...i miss you damn much!..you have to accept it..cant ignore ok..! hee...


Hubby,

I still remember your question.." what makes you love me" ..question that you always ask me..but i cant answer it...hee..i know you feel upset even you didnt show it...sorry..! i dunno the answer coz for me theres no actual answer for that..it's all about the feels..but one thing i know is im happy everytime i think of you..i smile for no reason whenever i read all your message..the way you express your feels..the way you teasing me...the way you make me jealous..the way you make me laugh...that's all makes me fall in love wit you more deeper every day..


Hubby,

Should i say this is our destiny?..I scared sometimes but you always have something to cheers me up and love it so much!..Maybe sometimes i makes you upset..sorry..! i didnt mean it..its just becoz im afraid loosing you..im not that good but i do hope you to accept me for who i am..i'll do that too for you..i'll do everything just to keep this relationship..! and im happy we do it together..Love it so much!!


Hubby,

~ GOD DESTINY..HEART FEELIN'..LIFE JOURNEY~..i keep this words..! and i always hope its was like that..!surely i believe it..coz until now i still cant believe that you're mine...the one i admire and now you're someone i can put my hope and love to..Huh..! i become more JIWANG whenever i think of you...Si Teddy Bear yang berjaya membuka balik hati ini..! sometimes i feels funny whenever i think how this feels begin...the hards time..!hahaha...theres one time i ask myself why must you? but, the answer is im HAPPY everytime i heard your name..seeing you smile, laugh and making

jokes...at last i know that i got a weird feels towards you..the feels that i keep ignore before this..and luckily you're the one who forcing me to accept it again..! my joys overloaded when i know its was you..!


Hubby,

Missing you damn much..! i just feels wanna cry everytime i cant handle it..! this is killing me..! Gila eehh..!sakit pula terlampau rindu kan??..hee...all i can do is just seeing the picture of you...haa..kasihan bah..! but still it cant statisfied me..coz i wanna see you for real..miss your hug..! wanna touch you..! pinch and poke you berabis..! Si hubby yg jajal i miss you so much..!


Hubby,

Astaga, i wrote so many words already but why still you fill up my mind...! you really the one who been locked there..! sorry..cant let you go..! hee..but i love it..! i dont believe forever but i hope you the last one who can make me belive its all..! arghh..! im getting crazy la ni macam...i dunno what power you got but damn im your craziest addicter..! even sometimes i feel guilty but becoz of my trust and love i ignore all the bad feel that haunted me..


Hubby,

Maybe this love letter didnt enough to tells you how i feels..but i do hope its still can makes you...! Anyway, this is sounds JIWANG..hahaha..! whatever, you have to read it to...please keeps this under ur pillow..so that im always on you mind..


Hubby,

Last but not least, just wanna says Thanks for making me feels loved and happy..Thanks for putting this smile on my face...Thanks for making me laugh with your crazy stories and funny words...my life would empty without all that...

But, the most things i wanna say is ' THANKS SO MUCH FOR LOVING ME'..!

..will wrote to you again..till then..


Regards,

Honey..

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

..November Rain ( Tears)..

[ 1st Posting on my FB Notes on 1 Nov 2010..]
..i shared it again here..

..its 3pm in the afternoon...its seems that today my tears dont stop coming out..dunno why but everything happen today touching my heart...the songs, the dreams, the jokes and even the talk...im EMO today...every thoughts that came out from my minds makes me relize and remember that life was'nt that easy...i miss everything in my life...i scared for what ever happen next...

..the dreams still haunted me...i didnt dreams lately...but today i got nightmares..the dreams that really scares me..the dreams that making me cry today...really i scared this things happen to me..becoz, i know my feels to him become more strong and deep day by day..no one could ever stop me anymore..i dont wanna lose him..

..the conversation...it suddenly reminds something...the things that i left behind for so long..its true i seldom do that but still i remember to appreciate it...but trully the conversation makes me reflecting all my past.. and still this tears wont forget to stop..Oh, God am i that bad..

..the songs..RENEW ME O'LORD...this songs touching me most..listen to it and you'll know why im feeling EMO today...

..But The most touching is waiting to 'meet' my late dad..its been too long didnt 'meet' and tommorow will do that..suddenly all the memories about him come out..i dont even wanna stop that..and yess that what makes me cry a lot today..its been 11yrs and deep inside my heart i still cant accept it.. haizz!!..this tears come again..

..Omg, why la today i feel so EMO... emm...everyday i hope that im more happy, blessed, and lucky...but the most important things i hope is that everyone get their happiness especially to my Beloved persons FAMILY + HUBBY..i love u all..no one can replace u all in my heart..To you all my friends..thanks for being here beside me..!!

Friday, October 29, 2010

He is the reason i smile today..


Hubby..gonna luv and miss u always.. I love de way u smile..talk..and mostly the way you teasing me..my life will empty without all that.. Luv u so much..!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

..A NOTES to YOU..

*** ..I wrote this last nite...special thought for HIM ( Ronald Linus )..***

..its 22.52pm...am still here reflecting everything happen ths fews weeks...funny, sad,guilty, angry, jelouse and mostly HAPPY feels seems too close to me...befriend with me...emm...how great life is rite??..sometimes u never wonder some things happen to urself...something we never expect..even how much u ignore still its the one who keep following you...IM IN LOVE thats what happen to me now..i dont cares if u know it or not...accept it or not...believe it or not...what i cares is my feeling...

..my past 100% gone...and im really sure abt it...dont ever ask me anything abt it coz im not gonna answer it...i have my own life now..no matter hw i handle it still its my life...im really appreciate everyone who is o standing beside me no matter what happen...luv u guys!!!

..i know its too early to think more about this relationship but its does'nt matter kan if i wish and hope for something precious??..i fall for him and i cant ignore it..he is something precious that happen to me this time...stay beside him is a dream that i wish happen for real..

..thanks HUBBY!!!...u just make my life more merrier and i hope it last for long!!...AMEN!!..

Sunday, October 10, 2010

..10.10.10..

what a nice date!!!...its remind everything happen last year ( 10.10.09)...
but i dont care anything anymore!!...He gone so do the memories...i dont want to keep anything anymore...i dont want it burdening all the new hope and love that decorated my life now...im happy for what ever happen right now...even sometimes i scared but i believe god has plan everything for my life...even someday this relationship does'nt works still im happy bcoz this guys ( RONALD ) makes me smile and laugh everytime...he makes me forget everything happen in my past... He makes my life mo merrier than before..



*** LOVE U ALWAYS HUBBY***

Saturday, October 9, 2010

...hate this feels..!!!!

i hate this feel...argggghhh!!!...confuse!!!...i scared!!!...i feel guilty...!!!
what happen to me...!!!!...