..wat should i do??..

huh!..
its march again!!..its comes likes last years..
so thats mean im coming to new ' NUMBER' again..
of course its increase 1 step ahead!..
huh..im getting older again..:((

so many things in my head..
especially MONEY!!..
suddenly its disturb my days...
haizz!!!!...the DIGI BROADBAND really makes me moody!!
whatever!!!!!

actually this MOOD disturbing my day n nights since monday!!
dunno why but its hurt me a bit..
always like this..huh! its makes me hate myself more..
tensionn!!!!!...and i hate it..
the office things..!
the home things..!
and this personal things..!!
its really annoying!!..
arghhh!!..

i hate the things!!..
but i cant says it...all i can do is yelling without voice..
its makes me crazy!..
i just feel like wanna go somewhere!..
where i cant find all this things!..
alone..and doing the things i like...wish i was the old one..
i just cant TRUST myself!..
how can dis be..??
wat should i do..??
im tired!!...i need it to end fast!!..

Help me, God..
i just cant stand..i have no strenght to face it all...

how i wish you understand wat inside me..!
wat i LIKE and DISLIKE..

~ A touched Songs!! ~

Im in LOVE with this songs for the 1st time..
such a beautiful lyrics..
im soo touched!!..really touched!!
i feel wanna cry..
i know its more to islam..
but its doesnt matter rite??..
i have a lot of family members who is convert to islam..
so do my mum..

i like this songs very much!! and the singer too..

p/s: Hubby...i'll LOVE you for the rest of my life!!..

...i miss YOU...

hey...

I MISS YOU En. Ronald...

its been a a fews day i didnt meet you..

but i feel like its a month havent seen u..

i miss hugging you...

i miss seeing ur smile..

i miss hearing your jokes..

but most of all i miss u teasing me..

haizz!!! cant stand with this feels..

do you miss me like i do..??

wish you here..

Take a good care..

get well soon..

I LOVE YOU so much!!!

.~ Today is HIS birthday!! ~

Hey!!..

its your birthday lar!!..

" HAPPY BIRTHDAY EN. RONALD!!"

23 yrs old ody...

and me will be 26 yrs this coming mac..

see the different??

hee...people ask me how can i fall in love with some younger than me..

i dunno how to answer...i only tell them " LOVE IS BLIND"

its appear no matter what situation..

honestly..

last time i really anti wit a guy who is younger than me..

i 'll ignore them becoz of that AGE..

hahahah! jahatkan..

but...

see what happen to me now..

im in love with him..and i didnt see the age anymore...

He really makes me forgot whatever i dislike..

i turn to someone that i also didnt expect i would be..

what i know now is i love that guy no matter what!

Si Hubby,

sori i didnt prepare ur present!..

i forgot..my fault..

sori again for didnt sings u a birthday songs last nite..

my bad!!..malu..:((

and im really sorry for not at ur side this moment..

i wish i was there...taking care of you...

get well soon..:))

i hope that all your dream come true..

more hapiness..

more love..

more matured..

more funny..

more handsome..hahahha! ( jokes! - i love you the way u are)

but dont too slim aahh!..heheheh!

AMEN!!

~ i take this chance to say " I LOVE YOU!" - its not enough actually..i do everything just to make u happy~

p/s: Miss u so much!!..i wish to celebrate it wit u..:))

..New Hair..

New Hair!!

He says i look like MUMMY..

hahahhah! jahat oo kan...

biar la..even im not 100% statisfied but i still like it..

1st time try this kind of style..so i'll accept the result..

and 1 thing they say aftr look at me is..

" Rain, you look more chubby like this.."

hee..yep! i admit it!

p/s: En. Ronald..thanks sebab temankan saya kelmarin..walaupun hubby says honey look like mummy still i like to hear it..i love you!..i'll never forget that moments..i enjoy the whole day!

..i cant be someone else..

cant sleep..so many things on my minds...

( just finished crying actually)..

dunno how to be strong this time..

same problem~

tired....

i wanna try to just say ' I DONT CARE'..

but its not me coz i care everything...

sometimes im asking myself..

" why is it happen in my life.."

" why i have 'MYSELF' now.."

~ a woman that always makes others feel bored..~

im sorry for that...

i just cant be someone else...this is me..im trying my best..

but theres sometimes that i like to let me be just MYSELF..

"saya SOMBONG.."

"saya EGO.."

"saya KERAS HATI.."

i admit it all..

accept me or not thats your jobs..

i wont force you...

Huh...! hati saya kacau saat ni..

tetau kenapa..its always ended like this..with the same reason.

.im tired actually...i feel like wanna give up!..

im really EMO tonight..sedih sangat2..

if only i can tell someone what i feel right now kan best..

tapi i cant coz im not that kind of person..

honestly, i surrender for that..thats not me..:((

LORD, give me strength to face it all..

if SOMEDAY what i dream is not a dream anymore..i'll accept it..

if SOMEDAY i dont have the fairytale..i'll accept it

but if that ' SOMEDAY' wont come up..i'll be the happiest person..

hopefully...i just wanna wish that SOMEDAY the dream & fairytale is MINE forever..

p/s : Hey, YOU - sorry if i always makes u feel bored , mad or whatever..i admit it..my fault..:((