..10.10.10..

what a nice date!!!...its remind everything happen last year ( 10.10.09)...

but i dont care anything anymore!!...He gone so do the memories...i dont want to keep anything anymore...i dont want it burdening all the new hope and love that decorated my life now...im happy for what ever happen right now...even sometimes i scared but i believe god has plan everything for my life...even someday this relationship does'nt works still im happy bcoz this guys ( RONALD ) makes me smile and laugh everytime...he makes me forget everything happen in my past... He makes my life mo merrier than before..

*** LOVE U ALWAYS HUBBY***

...hate this feels..!!!!

i hate this feel...argggghhh!!!...confuse!!!...i scared!!!...i feel guilty...!!!

what happen to me...!!!!...

...H.I.M..

...i feel scared with so many things!!...most of all is loosing the one most important in my life...i always told myself not to put many hopes...i do it...but its hurt me...still i cant ignore this jelousy!!...silly me right??..hurmmm...i dunno wat to do...whatever!!..just leave all this things to God, coz i know he already planned everything for my life...i love him so much...i care everything he do...i just need him to be mine ( a hope that i still cant see)...i'll do everything to cherished this moment where our love still fresh..appreciate everything we do and feel.. as he always says " jangan sia2kan masa bersama kita"..i'll do that!!..coz i dont want to feel regret when someday he is not mine...Thanks Hubby, for making me feel loved, cared and missed...You make my life merrier than before!!.. i'll love you always!!..and i hope you too feel the same!!...

.T.R.U.S.T.

...emmm...sometimes i dunno what actually its means...but,who cares actually...i know my past really makes me crazy...i will not trust anyone like before...even i love that person much more than before...whatever!!!...but i know im into that guys now...i try not to..but this feeling wont go..i dont want to fall in love with anyone rite now but its hurt when i try hard to push that feels out...sometimes i hope i never meet him...never admire..never told him my feels and acting like i never know...but i believe god already planned everything for me...even someday He is not mine but still im happy sharing him everything i feel and do...

** MISS YOU HUBBY!!!..**

...diam itu kadangkala menyenangkan...

...kadangkala diam itu lebih baik...but sakitnya lagi dalam...kalau tidak tahan memang boleh merana...i try to be silent but i cant stand the pain...i told him i admire him...and he feel the same too...but why still i feel scared...confuse...banyak benda dalam kepala yang buat sa rasa x yakin...is my past haunted me...i love this guy...he makes me smile again..giving another hopes to me...making me leave my past...open back this feels...

hurmmm...i just hope he is the one...but at the same time i wont forget that i should'nt hopes too much..i dont want to be hurt again...coz i know it is the most painful in the world!!...

**** i love u hubby***

...Arghhhh!!!!...

...shet!...suddenly bh ni feels kacau...haizzz!!!...ni la benda yang paling sa x suka..jelouse!!!...budu..

gila ehhh...bikin sakit jiwa oooo....benci ni....geram!!!