.T.R.U.S.T.

...emmm...sometimes i dunno what actually its means...but,who cares actually...i know my past really makes me crazy...i will not trust anyone like before...even i love that person much more than before...whatever!!!...but i know im into that guys now...i try not to..but this feeling wont go..i dont want to fall in love with anyone rite now but its hurt when i try hard to push that feels out...sometimes i hope i never meet him...never admire..never told him my feels and acting like i never know...but i believe god already planned everything for me...even someday He is not mine but still im happy sharing him everything i feel and do...

** MISS YOU HUBBY!!!..**

...diam itu kadangkala menyenangkan...

...kadangkala diam itu lebih baik...but sakitnya lagi dalam...kalau tidak tahan memang boleh merana...i try to be silent but i cant stand the pain...i told him i admire him...and he feel the same too...but why still i feel scared...confuse...banyak benda dalam kepala yang buat sa rasa x yakin...is my past haunted me...i love this guy...he makes me smile again..giving another hopes to me...making me leave my past...open back this feels...

hurmmm...i just hope he is the one...but at the same time i wont forget that i should'nt hopes too much..i dont want to be hurt again...coz i know it is the most painful in the world!!...

**** i love u hubby***

...Arghhhh!!!!...

...shet!...suddenly bh ni feels kacau...haizzz!!!...ni la benda yang paling sa x suka..jelouse!!!...budu..

gila ehhh...bikin sakit jiwa oooo....benci ni....geram!!!

~ P.R.E.T.E.N.D.I.N.G ~

..its hurt...pretending all the way...my heart cry...silly me when i need him to be mine....sakit sangat!!...he know i like him but he does'nt know that i need him...why should i pretend it...haizz!!

[ You, thanks for acting cool the day i told you..thanks for hearing all the words..thanks for accepting it..but honestly im in dilema, it all lies...its true that i admire you..but i lie about my true feeling for u..i need u to be someone i can have...thats the truth!!..]

...i wanna CRY!!!...

...Budu...sa benci ni feels...kenapa la dia datang balik...kenapa sa harus jatuh cinta lagi..padahal itu la benda yg sa terlampau mo jaga...i hate this...i feel jelouse!!!...why should i...i wanna cry a lot...i feel the pain...it hurts...u know that...how i wish i can say this words to u.." I ADMIRE U"..

...it's still here...

....its 1.13am in the morning and all i think is him...silly me...dunno how to stop...all i know is i'm missing everything abt Him!!!!!....what happen RAIN!!!....i wanna stop this things early bt still my heart say NO!!!...mati la ni kali....haizzz!!!!